I'm your entertainer

I pour my heart and soul
Into my craft
I blister my fingers
I cut my hands
I strain my vocal cords
I serenade you
I speak to you
I write for you
I describe your dreams
I watch you eat
While my stomach growls
I take a little break
And you all scowl
I get different food
I'm limited to a few drinks
I'm barely paid
I'm often betrayed
I'm often cheated
I'm doubted and judged

Yet you expect perfection
You want commitment to the moment
You want punctuality
You want the best.

Don't I deserve better?
I bare my soul
For that is my craft.

The Canvas

I tack up each mistake of mine
On the canvas of my life
They make little holes
And scar the image
Reminding me to tread light.

One by one I pull them out
Sew up the wounds they caused
Day by day they begin to heal
And make me stand up tall.

The living canvas flows on
I tack up more mistakes
Each teach me something more
Once again I sew them up
Much stronger than before.

The thing I hope to learn from this
Is to tack fewer down the line
Learn those lessons better yet
Tread lighter and surer in life
To  eliminate them over time

Each person, each time I skipped a step
Tripped me up, unsettled my mind
These tacks make me stay in line
Brace myself and open my eyes
So that each tack saves my life

The moment

Our eyes locked that moment
The room went empty
The sound amplified
Sealing that look
Frozen in my mind forever

Then I beckoned you
It was unplanned
But you followed me
And it all began

Lucid moments
Vivid dreams
Endless attraction
Sweltering heat
Feverish kisses
Quick embraces
Secret rendezvous
Evil schemes

Nobody knows about it
Nobody cares
But it's so obvious
It's right there
Staring us in the face
This crazy feeling we have
If only we give in
Forgetting those plans

Break the limits
Erase those lines
Take that leap
Throw away those plans
Let go of that harness
Just feel that free fall
Dive into each other
And forget all.

The essence of friendship

Friendship between miles
That seem to melt the heart
Resonate in your soul
When things feel
Like they're falling apart
A few wheels
A few gears
A few smiles
That can mop up those tears
A call that carries the voice
That often tugs a heartstring
One that doesn't rely
On the tautness of a purse string
That's what it is
That's what it should be
That's what we all want
And when you have it
Friendship is what it could be.

The winding road ahead

I made some tough decisions
I tried my very best
I aimed for my dreams
I reached out for the stars
I showered my love on people
I squandered my trust on things
I learned so many lessons
I taught myself restraint
I decided to work much harder
I planned a lot of changes
I lost a lot of friends
I made so many more
I lived the year 2015
I lived it like never before

But now in 2016
I'll do it all again
But this time I'll do it right
I'll get stronger and wiser again.

NECESSITY

Miles apart…
The ocean playing barrier
Emotions ebbing
Competing with the waves,
Rising and falling
Circumstances deter them
No means of proximity
The need to look
Into one’s soul
Feel the thrill…
Of that smile.
Making you dream
Far beyond ability
The need to see
The heart of happiness
Soaring high.
--Shivangi Vyasulu
Copyright ©2005 Shivangi Vyasulu

I hate long distance relationships!

Oath Of Recollection

Hey You! Standing there…

Hey you! Remember the fair?
I’ve gotcha lookin’ at me.
I pay no heed
Lest I care
Hey! I swear
I’ll be there for you
Anytime you dare
As long as I’m there
I’ll always care
Everywhere
What say you?
Do you care?

---SHIVANGI VYASULU
Copyright ©2005 Shivangi Vyasulu

Never got to meet him after all that!

Journey There

Two hills and valleys
Of sun and shade
Between still and windy
Earth amaze
The need to move along the grove
Of trees and shrubs and stars above
A stillness covers the fields
A warmth descends
A shrill bell rings
And condescends
Peacefulness and curiosity asunder
While traveling along the stars under
The final destination
Oh so very high
Climbing beneath the crimson sky
To the land of clouds
The land of trees
The land of wind
and true cool breeze
when the ascent is finally over
just stand on top
look down to the land of clover
and never forget to finally drop!
--Shivangi Vyasulu
Copyright ©2005 Shivangi Vyasulu

Scheming Techniques

Deception and manipulation
Are the names of her game
Slippery and unawares
Trapped like prey
Nowhere to go ..oh
Cornered by disgust

She’ll do it to you all the time
She’ll do it to you anyday
She’ll do it to you all the time
She’ll do it to you(2) anyway

Caught by her distraction
Techniques and schemes
She’s a regular at it
Evil view painted clear
The target is invisble
Till you’re oh.. to near

She’ll do it to you all the time
She’ll do it to you anyday
She’ll do it to you all the time
She’ll do it to you(2) anyway

Blackmail and false promises
Venom oozing from her breath
Taunting and eradicating
No escape detour
Intervention with guilt
And oh.. backfiring motives

She’ll do it to you all the time
She’ll do it to you anyday
She’ll do it to you all the time
She’ll do it to you(2) anyway

Just immunise the effect
Of sight or sound
No necessity for poisoned reaction
No time to spend understanding
The cause for hatred- coz oh yes!

She’ll do it to you all the time
She’ll do it to you anyday
She’ll do it to you all the time
She’ll do it to you(2) anyway

Uninhabited

The sun is setting 

And so is her life.
She thought he’d return…
But the copter had failed him.
Was he alive?
Her heart felt empty.
Her mind refused to accept 
The fact that he was gone.
She wanted to cry.
The tears wouldn’t flow.
She felt like a star
Without it’s light.
Like an uninhabited island-
Deserted!
She tells herself
`Life must go on’
Her heart says `no!
I am empty.
I cannot go on.’

--- Shivangi Vyasulu