It's a conspiracy!

I conspire every so often
I conspire for us to meet
I conspire with fate
And today got you delayed

I conspire every so often
I conspire for you to miss me
I conspire to hear you
And today I did

I conspire every so often
I conspire for you to seek me
I conspire to make you laugh
And today you laughed

I conspire every so often
I conspire for you to love me
I conspire with your heart
And today I told your brain

I conspire every so often
I conspire for you
I conspire with you
I conspired to create us.

All I ask of you

Hold my hand
Read my mind
See through my soul
Breathe in my smile

Tell me your feelings
Tell me you care
Tell me you'll promise
Tell me you'll be there

Hold me close
Read me to sleep
See me through troubles
Breathe for me

Tell me your feelings
Tell me you care
Tell me you'll promise
Tell me you'll be there

Hold on to that moment
Read between the lines
See through my facade
Breathe me in for a while

Tell me your feelings
Tell me you care
Tell me you'll promise
Tell me you'll be there

You

There's a vacuum
Where you used to be
Where I heard your voice
A vacuum in my heart

There's a silence
In the day
At the time we used to speak
A painful silence

There's a blank space
On my phone
And my contacts feel skewed
Coz you didn't call

This vacuum
This silence
This blank space
While I wait for you...

Seeking Authenticity:

In a sea of noise
In a sea of wannabes
In a sea of players
In a sea of the unoriginal

There rings
A true note
A true being
A true lover
A true dreamer

There speaks
A voice of reason
A voice of love
A voice of understanding
A voice of adventure

There begins
A journey of joy
A journey of discovery
A journey of souls
A journey of art

There, shall I be.
With you?

My Heart and Soul

Like peas in a pod
We went through life
Chatting and giggling
Sharing minds
Age didn't matter
When mischief was planned
Age was no factor
With secrets in hand
We reached each milestone
And shared our insights
We drove each other crazy
With silly little fights
But none of that changes
No matter where you are
Tying your life to someone else's
Makes me love you more by far.
So go live your dream
And be madly in love
Your happiness is mine
Your dreams are mine
I'll hold those memories
Deep within my heart
And here's what I'll tell him
With my hand on my heart.
A piece of my soul I'm giving to you
Treasure it, love it and protect it
Make sure you keep her happy
till the end of time.
Make sure you give her joy
And forever be entwined.

-Shivangi Vyasulu

I'm your entertainer

I pour my heart and soul
Into my craft
I blister my fingers
I cut my hands
I strain my vocal cords
I serenade you
I speak to you
I write for you
I describe your dreams
I watch you eat
While my stomach growls
I take a little break
And you all scowl
I get different food
I'm limited to a few drinks
I'm barely paid
I'm often betrayed
I'm often cheated
I'm doubted and judged

Yet you expect perfection
You want commitment to the moment
You want punctuality
You want the best.

Don't I deserve better?
I bare my soul
For that is my craft.

The Canvas

I tack up each mistake of mine
On the canvas of my life
They make little holes
And scar the image
Reminding me to tread light.

One by one I pull them out
Sew up the wounds they caused
Day by day they begin to heal
And make me stand up tall.

The living canvas flows on
I tack up more mistakes
Each teach me something more
Once again I sew them up
Much stronger than before.

The thing I hope to learn from this
Is to tack fewer down the line
Learn those lessons better yet
Tread lighter and surer in life
To  eliminate them over time

Each person, each time I skipped a step
Tripped me up, unsettled my mind
These tacks make me stay in line
Brace myself and open my eyes
So that each tack saves my life

The moment

Our eyes locked that moment
The room went empty
The sound amplified
Sealing that look
Frozen in my mind forever

Then I beckoned you
It was unplanned
But you followed me
And it all began

Lucid moments
Vivid dreams
Endless attraction
Sweltering heat
Feverish kisses
Quick embraces
Secret rendezvous
Evil schemes

Nobody knows about it
Nobody cares
But it's so obvious
It's right there
Staring us in the face
This crazy feeling we have
If only we give in
Forgetting those plans

Break the limits
Erase those lines
Take that leap
Throw away those plans
Let go of that harness
Just feel that free fall
Dive into each other
And forget all.

The essence of friendship

Friendship between miles
That seem to melt the heart
Resonate in your soul
When things feel
Like they're falling apart
A few wheels
A few gears
A few smiles
That can mop up those tears
A call that carries the voice
That often tugs a heartstring
One that doesn't rely
On the tautness of a purse string
That's what it is
That's what it should be
That's what we all want
And when you have it
Friendship is what it could be.

The winding road ahead

I made some tough decisions
I tried my very best
I aimed for my dreams
I reached out for the stars
I showered my love on people
I squandered my trust on things
I learned so many lessons
I taught myself restraint
I decided to work much harder
I planned a lot of changes
I lost a lot of friends
I made so many more
I lived the year 2015
I lived it like never before

But now in 2016
I'll do it all again
But this time I'll do it right
I'll get stronger and wiser again.