Friday, December 19, 2008

FOR WANT



I dream of a solution, of a life thats fair.
A feeling of content when decisions don't lead to despair.
Of flying away above the clouds of desperation and obsession to please.
Of genuine satisfaction and a feeling of ease.
I dream of living and not just being.
I dream of feeling and not just hurting.
I dream of grinning and not just smiling.
I dream of living MY life, like nobody but ME.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Here we are now.. Entertainer!


The day began with the bright stage lights
Burst forth on center stage the voice
The one with the hatred
For normal life
No influence of any friends
People or partners.
They just hinder his style
Curb his enthusiasm
Reduce the energetic presence.
A circular addiction for rolling vodka bottles around the mic…
A sign of luck it seems
I’ve never noticed the effects otherwise.
Neon lights set him on fire.
The buzz of an audience just makes it harder to keep still
Jumping up and down to the beat.
Along with her in the crowd.
She responds to the signs.
Knows the words
Feels the music too
She knows what he is talking about
He is a little hesitant to believe her
A strong hunch about the voice
The presence
The strength
The sequence he has chosen
The build up of songs leading to one song she expects
The phantom notes in the back of her brain
He begins to set himself up for it
She begins to grin wide
Her day has been made
His voice carries forth.
The words describe the thought
Every word and note catch the meaning
Behind the implied
Caught up in the explanation of it all
Perfectly explained by the end
She approaches to remind him of her prediction
He’s proud of her
But too much ego to let it come thru at the time
Requiring a little time
To get humbled after the episode
It takes 5 episodes to happen
She’s on her way
Out of patience.
Disillusioned
Trying to ignore the subtle traps
She has to look for them
He is very good at this.
6 others faced the same problem
She knows what to expect.
She shocks her with a new trap
She’s caught unawares
Prey-like
It’s all his fault
She braces for the upcoming disappointment
Sure as ever it is gonna come
A few minutes to go before it happens
Withdrawing the thoughts
Maybe reverse the last episode
Redo it differently
Why does she always get disillusioned at this point?
What can change her reaction?
He begins to plot a new move
She knows he has changed his mind
She’s one step ahead.
Begins her version of the episode
Prevent any further ego trips
She cannot let this go.
Not again.
This is getting old
New endearments don’t help.
Fake assurances that she can see thru
Confirmed only by acceptance of an ego
Commanding all thoughts and actions
She declares it’s the last chance he has.
He apologizes.
Wants to find a new ploy
It’s now time-bound
Crackling to remind the passage of irreversible problems
Why is he so complex?
3 days to shut down
-her decision has been made.

---Shivangi Vyasulu

Its a long story...I'd rather not explain. some of you will know what this is about... I didnt wanna publish i but what the hell it is my expression...
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